Tuesday, September 15, 2009,
Wow Fredric, Second post this month.... nice...1 thing to know,
Eyes = ( Just Girl friend)
Heart = ( Potential Candidate for marriage.)I've got things to spill so get ready.I'm mad. Mad about the disability of providing certain sense of security that woman wants. Although I understand that every one function differently, I am still unsatisfied with the me now. I do not look my age. Look like some poly student. I am skinny and those kind of girls that are pleasing to my heart are against my kind. Suffer in vain, apparently those human artifact are out of my control. So get alive Fredric. I also get angry when I see girls ( girls that not only pleasing to the eyes, but the heart too) are attached with some guy. I will visually scan through the guy ( not checking him out) and compare myself with him. Totally hate it. That girl that I saw today is with this... Young angmo... both in JC. I saw this girl just right outside the Mrt door, Both of us were outside. She is with two friends, the Angmo(AM) and another girl all in uniform. After I saw her, I saw the AM, immediately I start to visualise the possibility of the AM chasing her. Although they were standing a few feet apart, I could almost imagine the AM victory. True enough, once we were all in the train, this AM shoulder accidentally brush her face ( very crowded train) and she seems to be standing at the exact place, enjoying the feeling. I was super ferious and my blood were boiling. Seriously speaking, She is not my girl friend and I have not been chasing her... even for a day ? So why on earth am I so mad about ? I'm going crazy. This is not the first time though.Enough of ranting... Totally messed up my english there. So another crazy guy here : )
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