Wow.... today is the first day... of LOneliness.... very loneily.... is like a CRACK in the heart/... i feel so sad that i cant... do my best in every thing..... feel like crying when i think of her... wonder when she is coming back.... so fast.... she is gone.... i feel sooooo.......... funny... as in something REALLY missing in my heart.... some thing IMportant.... a lot of things i did not blog cus... i don want many ppl to noe.... i just write in the diary.... then... ya.. for own use.... she say she is fine... at home now... sleeping already..... ya... she get going too.... going to be.. lonely... real lonely... SOME ONE..... TALK to ME!!! needed help.... from some one.... some one to talk to... LIVE... CORn? would he be a better person to talk to.... COnsole.... me.... feel so sad.... ...tears driping down... when reading her blog.... with the music..... sound so sad.... well.... i miss her... really do

Wow.... today is the first day... of LOneliness.... very loneily.... is like a CRACK in the heart/... i feel so sad that i cant... do my best in every thing..... feel like crying when i think of her... wonder when she is coming back.... so fast.... she is gone.... i feel sooooo.......... funny... as in something REALLY missing in my heart.... some thing IMportant.... a lot of things i did not blog cus... i don want many ppl to noe.... i just write in the diary.... then... ya.. for own use.... she say she is fine... at home now... sleeping already..... ya... she get going too.... going to be.. lonely... real lonely... SOME ONE..... TALK to ME!!! needed help.... from some one.... some one to talk to... LIVE... CORn? would he be a better person to talk to.... COnsole.... me.... feel so sad.... ...tears driping down... when reading her blog.... with the music..... sound so sad.... well.... i miss her... really do

Hello!!! it has been long since i ever blog.... the blog of.... what.... i don noe what i am saying... but nvm.... now.... alone.... well... something felt missing some thing.... something important.... but,.... life got to go on.... when was the last time i ever blog.... i have not seen... her in a while... lol almost a week.... i FEEL like changing phone.... ben is going to change.... to Joey that one... pretty..... the cam... MP3.... haha 128 MB..... i don noe what to blog.... have been in school... so did nothg.... never go out also... so... ya... i try to write something nice..... now talking to corn... u wanna noe more about me... ask me or e-mail.... cos... i busy..TAG PLS

hello!! FORCE to blog... lol haha kidding.... em... ok... well... same thing happen... but just going to tell my FEELing..... well... it was i first sms her today...the FIRST sms.... is like... telling her... my life and so on... so we smsing and i rushing to sch... then... well we agree to meet each other.... at the afternoon after sch... so.. i was VERY.... happy... i cant wait for my teach to talk finish... she say she is THERE already when i STIll at sch.... WOW... lol so early so after the FELLOW(teacher) talk finish i RUSH there again... is not good to let ppl late although she is early.. not i late.. then... ya happily go to woodlands together... then we.. talk and talk... walk and walk to Novena and eat ice=cream then to marina square and suntec to walk... totaly nthg... lIFEles... only suntec got LIFE... lol.. she drink water then we talk... on the bench... talk about COLOUR of SHirt.... then we walk to mrt .... in the Mrt... we..... HUg each other.... feeling the confortable of each other.... i have the same feeling as IRene.... although i did not expresss it out... lol feeling happy... and hope it can be forever... then we sat down... REACH lao... lol i walk her home... b4 that we walk around the estate of ang mo kio... the send her home... when she is going up... WE ***** each other.... goodbye and NItez... then i walk off... she sms me say she is alone... no one at home so i ask whether need me to go talk to her... then she say don NEED.... cos she don one me to get scolded for being late.... so good of her... haha.. so ya i went home now.... blogging and typing time table for mom.... I have Happy time... with her... i really have... i LUV U.!!! and MIS U !

Hello... i have LONGG..... time never blog lao... ohh... feeling... cool... we have lots of fun.... we DID lots of things.... is all by chance..... first the car.... then the MRT.... lol now don need car or MRt it just happen naturally.... lol every thing... including what happen at...her house downstair... it was so quick ..... wow... thanks God... i really feel happy when out with her.... i am really happy with her... just hope it could last... just hope....

HeYY wow.... yesterday i met her.... adn we when out with others frenz to eat buffee... wo~~ filling... i need to admit yesterday was totally cool haha...

HeLLO!! guess what... is TOMORROW>>>!!!! well.... is like time to reflecx back on the thing that have happen over the past.... over 2004... when i first noe her.... okkk.... is story time~ happy?


ONCE uPon a year...called 2004 in a month.... call.... oct? I was surfing the net and looking around in friendster...SUDDENLY!!!! nthg much happen... but this face was infont of my screen... but the special thing is that... SHE.. wasn't the only one in the picture.... You guys will say... AH YA normal what... must be with a BOY...... BUT sad enough to say it isn't a boy but a BLUE BEAR.... a soft toy not a real one LA...... then this... makes me thing anot... cos.. this Girl... is at her 15 years on earth... but still a bear in her photo... CHILDISH??! NO! must have a reason...behind... so i decided to talk to her using a MESSAGE bar to message her... asking her... why do u take a pic with soft toy and.. IMportant.? or some thing like tat.. so i press on... chatting... and chatting... then... she told me she is a singaporean ONCE.... and... currently living in Australia... i was thinking... WOW.... cool... if i could Go there... lol so think is a good thing to chat with her... and... perhaps is wont kill having NEW frenz... so i was just starting to use the BLOG which is this... so i give her the pass word and userID and tell her... u can write your DIARY in side here... and i could reply INSIDE HERE.... or talk your feeling.. NOW is not using anymore but if u don get what i was saying.. visit( www.fredricirenediary.blogspot.com ) ya... so we start talking... and chating... with a simple heart to noe more about her and NTHG else... so we came to a point... where.... we HAD feeling for onw and other... so well... u can guess what could realy happen... and.. wanting to go to Australia to meet her... so working hard to do so... but apperantly did not do well in working... so i turn to God in prayer for help... so soon i found another job... working.. and it doesnt turn out too well too... so NVm... we have been chatting in msn and stuff... so... she told me that... she is coming the next year... so.. ya.. i going to meet her later... and things get a little bit different... more hard to explain... so.. ya SKIP SKIP SKIP... and guess what... she is coming tomorrow...! YEp happy and excited.... for the first time... wow.. wonderful... NEED to thatk god for helping us to keep the friendship strong and long... not really long but about 3 month?? but is LONG enough.. as in... don noe why but is a like GOOD frenz stage.... which is..hard to believe... but.. is true.... yep FINISH!!( some hidden thing inside the story which is not spoker..(M18) ) lol

so... is tomorrow... i am waking up earily waiting for the phone call.... and call my frenz... so ya... tomorrow is going to be a first day and big day.... WOW... eating Sakue SuShi buffee...I am PREtty Broke... but.. welll.... is not every day... so i am going to treat her as in a way... ya.. wo~~ exciting man... lol.. hope nthg BAD happen... is time for praying.... lol help me FRENZ... i also wonder... how many people actually boder to read it... lol pls tag...thanx.. looking forward to eat..

hello!! is only 2 more days.... then my PENPAL will be here.... in SINGAPORE.... wow.... tomorrow got... the SHatec thing... my eyes feel like closing... some how... GOd punishment... and..... i DID NTHG.... today using com only.... like a freak.... use until siao lao.... lol how will it be like to use the com whole day... and i FINISH the ART..... is not so nice in my mind is nicer... lol well i keep the detail.... haha... BYE!! gtg CHAT....

hello to all... time are getting lesser... do not hestage to serve God.... for he who create us... i have spend my morning... wasting... using com ... till after noon... going to get DEGREE in the eyes... well.. geto control... and.. i wanna go swimming... and... ice- skating... lots of things i wanna do but is blinded by the COM is like a sin tangling to me... have to get out of it... haiz... HAHA you are coming.... i am been greedy.. well wondering what is going to happen during your visit... my PEnpal (so called)... haha... u noe what it REALLY call.. haha... em... ben say wanna eat sakae Suhshi i wonder how... INternation buffee of SAkae SuShi... may be jap food ba...
haiz....

HEllo!! date 3/1/05 WOW.... what a NORMAL day... lol today i went for check up.... then took a injection... so long never take... scared.... but i took it... haha... and went for x-rays too... total is $48 wow... so X man... when home... I COOK WAHAA... i cook sure got new stuff to eat... ya i fried food.. and cook noddle with FUZHOU fishball... wow... the smell...is totally TEMTING... yep have a FULL lunch... and... when to talk to my frenz that came to my house.... and we talk talk he told me to SHAVE my.....LEG HAIR?? NOOO!!! my mostach then... i told him i don noe and i don feel like shaving... cos later the hair become hard... give me comment.... i wanna noe... any one... and ate dinner... slept and use com... FINISH!!! WAHAHA

well... what a day.... tomorrow many student will start school.... how it really feel like starting sch... esp NEW ones... i am scared... scared of my new school.. why? i am SOoo not sure... well just now i just said my frenz BLOG a DAMN BLOG cos... it has so many pop up... and... a virus.. which i don think he noes... itis call (v3ll) something like that... and i noe that he si angry and up set about it... i should rather control my speech... or it will be like TOTALLY AH BENG type.. with my HAIR.... oh ya.. lets talk about hair... my hair... my church people say... GANGSTER johnathen say... cool... with colour GANGSTER haiz.... but Yi Ling say... GANGSTER but noe u are NOT..... ok.. well... i don noe about what other think i am... em... i don wanna dye back cos... it SPOIL my HAIR... which i don like... so some times... i don put THINGS on my hair... unless there is a need... i just recover 70% from my SORE eyes.... b4 that my eyes was red... after that.. it was purily RED.... wow... gold hair red eyes... spiky hair... wow.... TOTALLY ****** shall live it for the person who READ to TAG what every he/she things it is.. so long nv write song... what happen... no insperation... but.. i have been thinking to puting GOd's word on the blog.. but WHERE.... still figureing OUT? so... what really happen today... i went to church in the morning... they did some... GAMES... well... a SURE lose game... with the P6 to welcome them... HOPE they feel welcome by wining... lol then some prayer... serious one... but some of by boys are NOT serious... so got TOLD OFF by me... cos... talking to god you are to be serious instead of laughing and talking... RUDE... hope they learn their lesson... IN my DG... i CARE ABOUT Displine... is IMPORTANT every where... after that when for service....funny one... not bad also... then rainging... when to eat with HU sign( don one how to spell) and johnathan eat and eat... i JUST lOVEE eating... take a bus when home, take a NAP...about...3 HR lol... i am A LAZY boy.. ahaha then wake up eat use com clean my DAD"S car... own car let me clean... where is the consept... NVM... then... watch TV IRon cLOth... SLACK and COM again... lol thats all... is getting LONG.. here..

oh... waht a day... yesterday i am busy..... and today i am also busy.... yesterday NIGHT when to Alex's house.... and COUNTDOWN... not really la.. have fun... get to noe ppl.... ya... but i did like..nthg... nvm... i stay over... wow... today supER tirED.... on the way home sleep like PIG in the MRT... so many ppl looking... me and matthew... lol.. then... SUper blur.. when home.. change fish water... then my cousin came... LOTS of them... all came and have fun... having lunch... and tonight.. going to my FATHER church frenz house... to celebrate?... wow... is KILLING ME.... my.. poor leg and EYES>.......... no REST ah... man.. feeling sad for my self... so i WONT be online... tonight.. and i DON DRINK alChOLic DRINKs