He has never felt this poor before,

His stage of poverty is near the last. It's going to test his faith in his creator to sustain. His wants will have to wait. Control will be the key word. Mind over body he must remember. Will this bring a new character in him ? A character far worst than before or will he be ever more generous. His laziness will be put to an end. All others leisure and fun will be on halt. He will have to re look at his life. He will have to understand how gracious and merciful has his God been. Providing him with a shelter far better than the others, an air-conditional room to rest in. Electronic gadget that help him to view the world in one click of the mouse. How much more does it has to take for us to realize and be grateful.

FYI, I just cut my hair. I must say this haircut is one of the most promising cut I ever had. I believe I am a very sensual person. I love it when this girl wash my hair. Her touch will melt my heart. While she was washing my hair, I was thinking "man, wash for another hour pleaseeee !" But of course it did not happen. I thought her washing was a little... 'weak'. Lack of strength. But at the same time I am reminded of gentleness of her hand, and when she massage my neck, it felt refreshing. I could possibly imagine if we get together and let this softness be remembered. Back to the haircut. That guy sound professional. At least he says words that is pleasing to my ear. He acknowledge the trend in hair now is not to thinner the hair but to do layering at the same time, displayed a degree of thickness. After he styled my hair, my overview of my head is pretty good, but my side burn is a little short ? Anyway, I am the one who requested for shorter side burn. $15 dollars for a good cut, all worth it. Would go back for the cut, and the hair wash. I don't think I would love it if my relationship requires little or no touch. Every time I carry a children to sit on the baby chair, I kind of felt happier. This sense of my will bring me back to when I used to carry babies. Now I think I lack physical touch with the world. This could also be a reason why I am such an introvert(cum extrovert).

I am.... Broke like never before.

I crossed my own line and now land myself in hot soup (mushroom soup ! Yummy)

Least I can do is to not borrow money from any people.

Let my poverty die with me.