Monday, November 03, 2008,
A quick update...Yesterday night I got too excited over a few things which you most probably know. One of it is my face. I have been staring at myself and thinking... not too bad. Then I took a photo using my handphone and start to stare. This time, I was thinking wow... how do you get your girlfriends ? Is like pretty bad looking for a guy. Vanity part of the issue. I start thinking about the passed while I was on the bed trying to sleep. But these thoughts just float by. How dumb I was on this particular date. It was pretty crucial. I remember dressing up for the date. God provide me chances by making it a raining day. I took out the umbrella and just sheltered her across. What I could actually do is like hold her close to me instead of rubbing her hand against mine thinking that it was a simple date. But I some how knew my guts was a tiny little seed. I NEED to grow it. I will try my very best to thicken my skin. Especially with girls. I am losing myself. Thinking about all these nonsense. Last but not least is my exam. I haven really start studying. I know I am in for a deep trouble if I don't start tomorrow. Time is really limited now. I wanna style my hair I want to dye it. I still look ugly. Really.I am lonely for Good
8:03 PM
