Friday, September 08, 2006,
End of Laughtertoday when back to shatec to collect my final resuly slip. Well, i PASS. is Just the Work experience only. see weather i can CARRY on this HATIC life. WHen back to work. Did a few stuff till about 3 like what, chef say go and do whateva u want till 5.30 come back. So me and Kok huat when for a drink. talk talk talk. Go HR to buy my NAME TAG. DAMN.. cost me 10 bUCks ... is damn ex. When to set function at the Atrim . 800+ pax. SO many... ask me to Wrap Po pian alone. lol luck when it start... bryan came to help me.. althought he is a bit.... BLOCK the damn way... lol but nvm... suvived. Then after did every thing.. go sit... and enjoy... the Swissotel dance and dinner night. Eat some and sat there... think think... about tat some one... looking at all the others Drink Beer... How i wish i could jus drink and get Drunk... too bad.. it comes more then tat. Rashes and Swallon... jus hate tat. Allgeyge to alchole. After tat when back with ben. AGaing.. talk about her... I was told SO many time to JUST LET GO. but i couldn't . Perhaps.. i just cant. NOt that i don want to.. but the Feeling is there... only she did not respond to it. Wie sheng also say tat. Some guy on the net also say... let go.. or jus ASK her STRAIGHT... but.. i guess the answer wont be what i wanted. Looking at how she react to me and stuff... i CAnt be wrong.. so now.. i just think and think... thinking to let go or not. I really hate to let go.. but.. haiz.. the song CHong LIA... is a nice and meaning ful.. jus how i am now... Suppose to meet her tomorrow... but i guess she forget again... i Also nv go and ask her... nv sms her.. cus.. she could jus STOP half way... soo no point. SOme thing... are jus so unusal. Nv met her.. but jus wanna be with her. Many guys should have the same thinking.. may be... i'm just not the one.. IS a kiss goodbye situation. After Irene... I guess like a curse on me. That i will not get love again.. not even short term... NOT even close to that... If Irene could be HERE... only if i didn't let go. Only if... ONly if...is the end of happiness for me... for work for love. Chef william is BACK on sat to SCOLD every one. jus hate to think of it. soo soos soooo tired... the eye bag is FALLing on me.. the Weight is heavier. i'm drying... Could some one save me??Could it be you?
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