Let Imaginations Take Flight.

Sunday, June 21, 2009,

Life has been so hectic. It is draining every single bits of my emotions. Looking back at the photos my cousin upload, I saw the simplicity of the older generations. I'm not implying that those days were easy. But, people were easily satisfied with the things around them. That is also because technology wasn't so advance. Comparing the old days with the era I am living in, I definitely prefer the old days. During those days, songs are clear and smoothing. Choices were deem less but easily defined. Objective of life was just to live. Condominium estate was just faraway dream. Bicycle is just the transport you need. If we sustain the way our fathers live, the world would be in a better state.

The Good Old Days

11:45 PM

Tuesday, June 09, 2009,

Being the best man isn't easy. Having the prefect hair, the perfect look, the perfect height, the perfect size and the perfect personality. Strangely I though that being the best man only took place before you married. Maybe not so uptight about the rest of the outer appearance but the inner stays.

So about the life before marriage. Some says without the bond, it is as good as freedom. A carefree life without any responsibility. Sounds great ? Could be. Sometimes it become hard to consider that fact that you could get only at time. With most of your friends having family and stuff like that it could be quite demoralizing.

A question ask by a friend before, would you still love your kids as much as you love them when they grown to become a teenager or even an adult ? Think through carefully. When they are young, children seems cute and adorable even when they made mistake can misbehave. But when they grow up and changed. Will you still have the same mindset ? When your child make a mistake, a mistake against the law, will you be able to forgive him. Even to the extent that he took your money and flee ? Came back with empty pocket and ask for forgiveness. Will you still forgive ?

It is pretty hard for me to answer it. If your answer is yes to all of the question. Great. It can be rather hard. But God, could say with confidence, yes. Somebody ask Jesus how many time should I forgive my brother that sin against me ? Jesus said something like thing; " If he sin against your once, forgive him. If he sin against your seven times, forgive him seven times. If he sin against your Seventy times, for give him seventy times. If he were to sin against you seventy seven time, forgive him seventy seven times." The answer is clear. Being Christ likeness is hard. Forgiving is even harder. But we should not give up despite our failure, because our father will forgive us no matter how many times we sin. As long as you go back to him and ask for forgiveness.

1:25 PM

Wednesday, June 03, 2009,

It is good to know that my national service friend miss me. He said one of his classmate reminds him of me. Don't get the picture wrong. Is PURE friendship, not gayness. Then we start to have a good chat, he tells me about his life, his sch... everything... Damn, I miss those times. But neither do I wanna relive those days. BMT not fun. Botak, not fun.

10:57 PM

Tuesday, June 02, 2009,

Lovely Readers ( If you are not lovely, take flight out of here)

Your not so long awaited emo post is here. Some times, think a little further at the future, I think I am not fit to marry any one. Looking at my friend(female) dad's car, I start to form illusion, I have no money, no car, no look, no brain. I might as well eat grass and die right... Maybe not eat grass la, just die alone... Sometimes I just wish I don't need to study, and work. Get pay, enjoy at the weekends, Sunday sport. How nice is it. Assuming it is not going to happen so soon. But I consider myself bless by God, being put in this family, although I would love to go for overseas trip and being sponser by parents, like my other friends. I am bless by electronic gagets. Bless by air-con, own room. I just hate my complaining about myself.

Do you consider yourself place at the wrong place... being unlucky?

Think again

12:07 AM

Friday, May 29, 2009,

Stay Fat and Prosper

New quote. Life has never been easier. It keep crashing on me. Fighting back to stand firm. All that is left of me were broken pieces. If it is for you, I will fight till the end. If it wasn't for you, it would as well be my death date. Controlling my emotion, holding back my tears, I try and try not to cry. As much as it hurts me, I got to hold on. Plant my feet firm into the ground.

I grab on tight. Never to let go. Oh gracious Lord, let not my failure be the sinking sand. Let not my emotion draw me away from you. Let not your righteous judgment be upon my friend. Let not my failure cruse you. Let not my pride carried me away. Let it not be the end but a better beginning.

Let my feet be glued to you.

May you be my fortress, my shield my source of strength.

Let you alone be my guidance.

12:18 AM

Tuesday, May 19, 2009,

Dear all,

It has been some time ever since I last blogged. So here I am. Once again I have reach a part in life that I almost give up. If you read the bible, you would probably be familiar with this guy call Job, he is a man that God find him righteous. Satan tested him 3 times ? And did not fail the test despite the lost of his everything. My point is not that I am like him or what. I am no where near that man. The point is that will I be able to be like him during the period of testing. I thought I could. Most certain I could. Then came the test. This test puts my pride, my money and my time on risk. First thing I did was I question God. Stupidly I failed the first test, question his existence. But I constantly reminded myself to praise God and give thanks for what I receive. I sat there, and think to myself how can I give thanks for this, I asked God is this what he intended? May your way be done not mine, I always prayed . At that point I want to cry, But I could not, someone was there. I don't wish to scare that person and I definitely don't wish to expose myself to others. I prayed that night for forgiveness for the lack of faith. I prayed for relieve and for solution. If problem not settled, I will be in hot soup. After that incident, even when I saw my friend, I felt I grew distant from them. Like some kind of emo personal. It really is shameful. I wish that did not happen. More important, God would solve it for me in the best way.

I withdraw from the face of the earth, I sink in sinking sand. I tell myself to do my best in the future and not repeat the mistake. God is there with me. I know he is.

10:47 PM

Thursday, April 30, 2009,

Your freethinker profile You're a practical free-thinker, so you value solutions and common sense. You're always ready for action, and when faced with issues or problems you don't shy away from getting your hands dirty to achieve results.

Your eyes reflect the color yellow. You are a warm and inviting person. You tend to have brighter spirits more often than others. You try to see the silver lining in everything. You are also very open to others' opinions and put your heart in everything you do. You also love to make people happy by being a bit humorous. Because you are so positive when things turn out not as you planned you tend to feel pity for yourself. You can also be gullible and unaware of things. You can also be forgetful at times. In all you are a Bubbly person.

Ahhh..... Thats ME : )

Yep, just came back from Malaysia. I tell you, the driver there are crazy. Esp bus driver or those lorry driver. They cut into your lane without warning and they just CUT right in front of you. If you are not careful you could just smash into it. I was driving there and tasted it. Not as in crashing sense la... I highlighted my hair. Wasn't thrill with the colour at first but after washes, it became more colourful. There is ash, blue, green, brown and gold ?

I wonder what do I look like from a stranger eyes.

Monkey ? Rainbow ?

Or some crazy fellow

11:50 PM